My soldier called this morning. The new gal I work with was laughing at me because she said my feet don't touch the ground after talking to him. Its true.
I can't help it. He's just so.... GOOD. When we don't agree on something, he tries to see my point of view. Then he'll gently help me to see his. He thought I was upset about something (I wasn't) and when he had to run to a meeting, he said he was going to call me back afterwards just to see if I was ok. Like he's in the office building next door and not a world away! He is so good to me that it takes my breath away. What do I love the most about my soldier? He's a really good man but a bad boy exactly the way I need him to be. Nuff said.
Somehow we began talking about what is going to happen in his career after this deployment. We briefly discussed this back in September when we were dating. I knew there was a possibility of him leaving Texas but he hasn't mentioned it since then. We try to stay in the present moment when we talk on the phone.
Today he said there is the distinct possibility that, after June of 2009, he could be stationed elsewhere. Or he could stay in Texas. I've read enough of the other military spouse blogs to know that with the Army, you never know anything until the 11th hour.
This begs the question: Am I ok with this? Even if he does stay in Texas, he would still be 2.5 hours away and we would most likely only see each other on the weekends that he could drive up. I am fine with that.
If he's stationed somewhere else, he did state that he has loads of vacation time. I'm sure we'd see each other as often as possible.
If we got very serious, would I consider moving? Heh. Good question. Its not just me I'd be uprooting. And I'd hate to move my girls away from their dad.
The good news is that he'd ultimately like to retire in this area. He has lots of family here. His retirement will probably be another 2 years after he returns from Iraq.
I had to blog about this because at this moment, I am ok with not knowing what is going to happen in our future. Sometimes it frustrates me. Sometimes it drives me absolutely insane. But right now, I am ok.
I've blogged about this before. Sometimes, the plans change, things happen and you realize that you are exactly where you're supposed to be. You just may not know it at the time.
I didn't plan for him to re-enter my life. I didn't plan to fall for a soldier. None of this was part of my plan.
I guess you could call it faith but we've been ok so far and I think we will continue to be, whatever happens. Sometimes you just have to get yourself out of the way and hang on for the ride.
He even said, "You never know. A miracle could happen."
Yes baby. I believe it already has.