I do believe that we have finally found the remedy that is helping me to stay more balanced emotionally. Between homeopathy, yoga, cycling and A Course in Miracles, I feel so much peace and happiness in my life. My mom even commented on it the other day in an email to me:
It was good to see you - you really look good lately. I guess HAPPY makes you pretty.
I have noticed that the happier I feel, the more people I attract. I suppose it is a natural consequence of seeing life in a positive light and my attempts to not take myself quite so seriously. I'm finding that I feel like its finally ok to "let go and let God". I don't know that I ever truly grasped that concept until recently. There is some peace in knowing that a bigger force is at work here. I've also learned to appreciate the meaning of another cliche: "This too shall pass." Acceptance of the impermanence of things or situations also offers us much freedom.
Its ironic that I'm understanding philosophical concepts better because I have my emotions in check. I would think it would take the philosophical concepts to help me get my emotions in check. I suppose it is all connected. Just as everything is.
I also learn so much from you all. I began this blog as an outlet of sorts. I've always kept journals and diaries since I was 8 years old. It has always been good for me to put things down in words. I have journals that document times in my life like my pregnancies, the demise of my marriage, my infatuation with an old friend, my frustrating relationship with my father and my struggles with the deployment of my soldier. Something about writing it down helps me to clear my head. I can see things more clearly. I can vent to my journal and save someone else the pain of listening to my hurtful words.
You, who read this blog, help me by listening. And the comments and emails I receive are even more inspiring as you point things out to me that should be obvious but aren't to me. It's much easier to see things from a different point of view.
Thank you for joining me on this quest. It feels good to know that I have friends here.
Oh and my soldier called today. He has enjoyed hearing the comments several of you have made on my posts, especially the most recent sexy post. He made an observation later in an email:
Sounds like alot of your readers want to trade places with me in October. Remind them that, while I agree that I will be lucky to be me in October, it comes along with being in Iraq from November 2007 through February 2009. Not so lucky for 14 of those 15 months.
I know you want to say "poor guy." I know I did... but he sounds so very happy on the phone with me. I think we're just happy together. Even when we're apart. And that makes me smile even brighter!