My soldier called a few days ago. I've been having a hard time lately with the deployment and missing his phone call from last week didn't help matters much.
I end up getting lost in my own ego thoughts and drama and begin to worry and make up reasons why I shouldn't wait out this deployment.
I can always tell when my ego is in the way because I notice that I'm dwelling on the past and/or the future. I'm always happier in the present moment. I know this!
Anytime I feel worried or doubtful or weak, I don't know if I should share my feelings with my soldier. He has enough in his life right now. He has a close family of men that he works with as well as other important life and death duties. My feelings of "where is this going?" or "does he really want to be with me?" or any other whiny girlfriend drama seem so small compared to the other things he has to deal with. I am generally hard on myself for even getting lost in the drama but sometimes, I just do.
Then I hear his voice and I become a flood of emotion.
I expect to hear an annoyed and impatient man on the other end of the line. Someone who says, "I don't have time for this!" or "I can't deal with this right now."
But no. He has never done that.
I don't know why I would ever expect that from him when he does things like give toys to little Iraqi girls and send a Bratz DVD and stuffed animal to my daughters from Iraq.
No, instead I hear a loving, kind-hearted, patient man who does nothing but use sweet words of reassurance and reminds me of how much he appreciates all that I do for him.
He had to let me go about 1/2 hour into the call. Then he called me back to finish our conversation.
It was a light, happy, fun conversation filled with laughter. I love his laugh. And he loves to make me laugh.
By the time we hung up the second time, I was glowing and all smiles and giggling at myself for ever having doubts in the first place. (Though I'm sure I will again.)
Later that evening, I saw that the area my soldier is stationed in was hit with several bomb blasts that day. Maybe that was the reason he had to hang up the first time? But then he called back.
He called back!
With the hell all around him, he still managed to make me a priority, reassure me and make me laugh!
What a man...
Yep, some things are just worth waiting for.
His leave in October can't get here fast enough!
P.S. You guys only know my part of this story. Just to get an idea of what soldiers and their families go through, check out this ABC News continuing story of several soldiers who have recently deployed on a very long tour of Iraq. So far, there is a part one and a part two. Or you could click on any of the blog links on the right sidebar under Loving the Soldiers. These are stories that will encourage you to be strong in your own story too.