Its early Saturday evening. The girls are in the other room watching a movie we rented last night. I'm in the kitchen making turkey tacos.
As a late afternoon snack, I made Ghirardelli hot chocolate for the kids and me. They drank theirs with tiny marshmallows and I drank mine with a shot of dark rum.
Its been a while since I've had a good stiff one.
Any kind of stiff one!
So, with a fresh buzz going and taco shells in the oven, I thought I'd blog about the latest with Soldier.
He's been really consistent at staying in touch with me.
Currently, he is on the other side of the country visiting with family and following his Alma Mater college basketball team during March Madness.
I'm wondering if I'm going through my own March Madness... and its just the end of February.
We have plans to go to dinner when he returns to Texas. I can barely believe that when I see him again, it will have been 5 months since I last saw him.
5 months of me doing my damnedest to move forward and get on with dating other people.
Yet when I hear his voice, those 5 months are nothing but a blur of futility.
He emailed me earlier last week to give me a heads up of what the last few games are looking like and when he estimates he will be back in town. I never replied. I know he's not checking email all the time.
Yesterday, I left my cell phone in my office as I talked to several of my co-workers before heading home. When I gathered my things to leave, I saw that he'd called and left a voice mail.
I teared up when I heard his voice. I haven't spoken to him via phone since he's been with his family. Hearing his voice yesterday... he's starting to sound like his old self again.
I'm doing my best to keep my wits about me. I'm trying my hardest not to project any sort of imagined fantasy of what it will be like when we see each other again.
But when he says things like "I hope to see you soon" and "I'm looking forward to seeing you again..."
Oh how my heart leaps with joy!
I'm trying.... really trying not to get too excited.
Ok, back to reality. Dinner time!