Because my head is full of thoughts...

I love that my little Grace won't even start her morning without a snuggle from me. Even if she's up before me on a weekend, she will come into my room, find my hand or arm and give it a sweet squeeze before starting her day.

There's so much love in my life.

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The Beautiful Kind twittered about a tool that will analyze your blog to see what personality type you are - based on the Myers-Briggs personality types.

My blog persona:

ESFP - The Performers

The entertaining and friendly type. They are especially attuned to pleasure and beauty and like to fill their surroundings with soft fabrics, bright colors and sweet smells. They live in the present moment and don´t like to plan ahead - they are always in risk of exhausting themselves.

The enjoy work that makes them able to help other people in a concrete and visible way. They tend to avoid conflicts and rarely initiate confrontation - qualities that can make it hard for them in management positions.

Apparently, I'm a spiritual, harmonious feeling type of person who likes order.

Duh.

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I always seem to look at the clock when its 12:34.

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Did you know that people who have a major fear of abandonment are the very ones who will subconsciously force an abandonment to happen?

Of course, what we fear, we make real.

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I think about sex probably 95% of the time.

I can also turn just about anything into something naughty.

Like for instance, I drove past a sign that said:

"This street adopted by the Young Men's Service League. "

Of course, my eyebrows raised and I thought, "Hmmm... I may need to look them up for some, ya know, service. "

Yep, I have a gift.

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When I was a little girl/early teen, I thought Grizzly Adams was coolest guy ever! I mean, his best friend was a bear for pete's sake!! I also liked John Corbett's character from Northern Exposure.

Sensitive souls who co-exist with nature... yay.

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I've realized that I've been in a relationship with a narcissist.

(Thanks to QT Mama for the heads up on that one. I love the blogosphere!)

Perhaps it was a mild case before but apparently, life crises (like, um, war? turning 40?) can cause narcissism to fully take over a personality.

I have been learning quite a bit about myself here.... and the narcissist with whom I'm currently breaking ties.

What I'm reading is frighteningly accurate.

And sad. Very very sad.

It is also apparently completely normal for the break up with a narcissist to be "a tortuous and drawn out post mortem".

The narcissist's partner, throughout much of the relationship, will be in a "predominant state of .... utter confusion". Huh. Ya think?

*sigh*

Ok, moving on...

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Yesterday evening, I finished cleaning the kitchen and walked out on the front walkway to enjoy the sunset at the end of my street.

The spring birds were happily singing their songs and the breezes blew through the newly sprouted leaves on the trees. The weather was a perfect 75 degrees.

As I looked up in to the cloudless blue sky, I noticed a butterfly fluttering seemingly aimlessly above my head. I watched as it landed in a tree branch... and joined at least 10 other butterflies already lit on the branch.

The Monarch butterflies are on their spring migration from Mexico to Canada and they're resting in MY tree!

Tears came to my eyes as I witnessed the perfection of that moment. I turned again and looked towards the western sky. The sunset sky was a perfect mixture of orange, pink, blue and purple.

I took a deep breath and thanked God for everything. EVERY thing that I've seen, done and been through.

Then I walked back into my house and grabbed my girls to share in the wondrous moment!

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The other day, we were driving to school and were stopped at a red light. Rose was perturbed. Our brief exchange about the situation stuck with me:

R: "I hate red lights."
T: "If there weren't any red lights, there wouldn't ever be any green lights."

Profound statement, eh?

Or something like that.


*Photo from here.*