For the past few days, I've had a tickle in my throat. I don't feel as if I'm coming down with anything. I still feel strong, healthy and positive.
But every time I try to talk, I barely speak a few words without coughing.
I was so frustrated with the coughing/inability to speak yesterday that I stayed on the down low most of the day. That tends to throw people off because I'm very animated and talkative most of the time.
I found that as the day went on, I was more and more irate and short tempered because I couldn't talk. I was reminded of what I said yesterday, "When I get sad, I love to sing."
But if I can't use my voice, I get even more upset!!
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This morning it occurred to me that there are a few things that will definitely get me in a funk. I suppose these are things of value to me and when I lose them, I feel really down, out of sorts or irritated.
Here is my list of must haves for my sanity:
- My voice - I talk. A lot. As if this blog isn't evidence enough of that! I also sing all the time. In my house, there is always someone singing. If it isn't me, it is one of my daughters. When I don't have my voice, I feel stifled.
- My health - This includes sleeping well, eating well and exercising. I'm a little concerned about my impending surgery because I will be bedridden for about 10 days and have limited mobility for a month to 6 weeks. I am not a patient patient! I feel so guilty having to rely on someone else and I hate not feeling well. Guess I'd better suck it up.
- Routine - I think a part of what put me in such a funk before, was that my routine was off. I was out of town 3 weekends in a row. I was behind on chores, paying bills, laundry, grocery shopping and all that goes with single parenthood. I loathe being behind on things. It makes me crazy.
- Order - Along that same line, I can't stand when things are not where they're supposed to be. Of course, having two small children means that things are misplaced (or taken or not put back) all the time. I get a little nuts but especially when I'm behind and things begin to pile up. Chaos in my house means chaos in my head.
I suppose this list definitely proves that I'm a Capricorn. I honestly think this list was MUCH longer before I was a single mom. As a single parent, we have to let some things go.
Still, when I have these few things under control, I feel like all is right with my world.
At least temporarily!
Every single mom needs one... (part 1), (part 2), (part 3), (part 4), (part 5)
I am SOoo with you on the order thing. I have had to learn to let some things go (especially being a single mom) but it still irritates the crap out of me when something just "grows legs and walks off". Having four girls - 2 of which are teens - this tends to be clothes, makeup, even my perfume! Ugh!
ReplyDeleteSame thing with things being undone (bills, laundry...)
And this couldn't be more true; "Chaos in my house means chaos in my head."
Feel better sweetie, and I hope you get your voice back soon. You'll need it this weekend. ;)
While I have never been much of a routine kind of gal, I can see how one who is would be thrown off after three weekends away!
ReplyDeletePS I talk A LOT too:)
I am SO with you on the routine and order. My poor dog needs constant attention right now as I nurse her back to health, and both routine and order are paying the price. Ugh. I haven't done the dishes in over a week, the weeds in my lawn are knee-high, there are piles of stuff on every flat surface in my house. It's driving me nuts. Clutter is visual noise to me, and I can't relax in my own house with all this racket.
ReplyDeleteThis weekend will be a cleaning frenzy for me, and I will feel SO much better for it. Hope you start feeling better soon, and enjoy your weekend! ;)
T, I agree that as single parents, our list of priorities gets shorter, a lot shorter. We learn to let things go and only focus on the essentials.
ReplyDeleteI'm like you, I love to sing, when I'm sad or happy.
And I like order, especially when I get up in the morning. If my living space is messy, it will set the tone for the rest of the day.
The exercise thing... I'm slowly getting back to it. Things are getting easier now that my babe is older and my life is almost back to normal.
I hope you don't get sick. Boil some ginger root, add lemon and honey. It works wonders :)
I love to sing, too, although I'm generally pretty terrible at it. I'm very particular about who actually gets to hear me do it! :)
ReplyDeleteWhen I can't exercise, I get antsy. Give me a good cycle or run, and I'm fine!
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