For the past few days, I've had a tickle in my throat. I don't feel as if I'm coming down with anything. I still feel strong, healthy and positive.
But every time I try to talk, I barely speak a few words without coughing.
I was so frustrated with the coughing/inability to speak yesterday that I stayed on the down low most of the day. That tends to throw people off because I'm very animated and talkative most of the time.
I found that as the day went on, I was more and more irate and short tempered because I couldn't talk. I was reminded of what I said yesterday, "When I get sad, I love to sing."
But if I can't use my voice, I get even more upset!!
This morning it occurred to me that there are a few things that will definitely get me in a funk. I suppose these are things of value to me and when I lose them, I feel really down, out of sorts or irritated.
Here is my list of must haves for my sanity:
- My voice - I talk. A lot. As if this blog isn't evidence enough of that! I also sing all the time. In my house, there is always someone singing. If it isn't me, it is one of my daughters. When I don't have my voice, I feel stifled.
- My health - This includes sleeping well, eating well and exercising. I'm a little concerned about my impending surgery because I will be bedridden for about 10 days and have limited mobility for a month to 6 weeks. I am not a patient patient! I feel so guilty having to rely on someone else and I hate not feeling well. Guess I'd better suck it up.
- Routine - I think a part of what put me in such a funk before, was that my routine was off. I was out of town 3 weekends in a row. I was behind on chores, paying bills, laundry, grocery shopping and all that goes with single parenthood. I loathe being behind on things. It makes me crazy.
- Order - Along that same line, I can't stand when things are not where they're supposed to be. Of course, having two small children means that things are misplaced (or taken or not put back) all the time. I get a little nuts but especially when I'm behind and things begin to pile up. Chaos in my house means chaos in my head.
I suppose this list definitely proves that I'm a Capricorn. I honestly think this list was MUCH longer before I was a single mom. As a single parent, we have to let some things go.
Still, when I have these few things under control, I feel like all is right with my world.
At least temporarily!
Every single mom needs one... (part 1), (part 2), (part 3), (part 4), (part 5)