Last week, I was ticked at my ex because I was trying to make some plans for the kids and I to go camping sometime this week. I wanted to use the pop-up camper that the ex and I bought - which, currently, is nothing more than an over-priced playhouse in his backyard. Unfortunately, he has not been maintaining the license on the camper and thus, I was unable to use it. He's promising to get it up to snuff before summer so he can take the girls camping. I'm going to have faith in him. He's been surprising me lately.
After realizing the camper idea was out, I decided to rent a cabin. It is spring break and we could only be out for one night. Personally, I'm a tent sort of girl. I have no problem going in the woods. My girls, however, haven't been exposed to that much 'roughing it' yet so a cabin would work just fine.
I talked to my mom, a long time camper herself, who asked if she could come out and bring my sister's kids too. Then I found out that my brother was coming. And my sister would show up too. Gem thought it sounded fun and decided to pop in at the last minute.
It was exactly what the doctor ordered!
Our home by the lake - for one night
I wanna kayak too!!
I had to take a picture of the mallards for Gentleman Jack
A gorgeous sunset and perfect weather
An advertisement for Texas
Ahhhh! Beautiful sky
I love a good campfire on a chilly night
We laughed. We went on nature walks. We enjoyed ducks and gulls and geese and turtles and squirrels and howling coyotes in the distance at dusk. We grilled burgers, hot dogs and steaks. I enjoyed some vodka tonics, while others enjoyed beer and wine. We made s'mores and met our camping neighbors. My brother brought out his guitar and we sang around the campfire. We reminisced about camping trips from our childhood and our dad. We took a ton of silly photographs. The kids searched for shamrocks in celebration of St. Patrick's day. Gentleman Jack was there in spirit and declared, "You really are a great match for me!"
And that made me smile.
Mostly, it made me smile because I was already smiling. I was enjoying myself, feeling the love from my family and reconnecting with nature.
The 'make me happy' thing doesn't start with Gentleman Jack or any sort of changes to our situation. Things won't be better as long as I'm stuck in the 'if only' state of mind. I know this but I don't always remember.
The happiness starts with me.